Life right now.

Things like this are really hard for me.  Putting down what I'm feeling, and describing all these things, well I'd rather just tell you but here goes it.  What am I doing in my life right now?  I get that question a lot and I'm always like " well..."  So I usually say this: I am working at a job (which I'm not right now because it just ended), living with my parents (I usually say all bummed out) and working with Youth with a Mission (YWAM) Modesto.  Also being a youth leader in my church.   I am actually really happy to be working with YWAM.  I sometimes think I'm not qualified enough or good enough. But those are just my insecurities speaking.  Anyways back to what I'm doing....every Friday morning we go down to South 9th St and set up some tables and chairs and have coffee and pastries for the people who live down there.  A lot of the people I see are on drugs, living in really crappy gross motels, which cost a fortune to live there, prostitutes, or just someone who lost their job and their house and got stuck there.  It's crazy to go down there and then be able to go back to my comfortable life.  Like I think to myself, "Those people never get to leave!"  It's frustrating and sad all at the same time.  But all I am there for is to let them know that there are people who care about their lives and who they are.  So I am now looking for a job and enjoying my time off!  On a lighter note..I really like the show Glee, and Dexter.  I am living with Alexa my bestie, which for the most part is so fun, except the parts where we fight like sisters. Ha.  I'm trying to read the bible more, its a struggle of mine to stay focused on one thing. If you didn't know, I'm easily distracted and bored.  Not saying the bible is all boring, just some parts. Ok I love you all and now I will say goodbye.. I hope I didn't bore you to death!